sometimes its not that i choose not to try, its that i dont try and that is what makes me fail to show my full potential. i know i have potential, i've been told many times. its just that sometimes its like well, i just dont have it in me to show it.

so i finally made myself a list of the top 5 things that i want to accomplish in my head and here i am posting it as my very own blog:

1) make dean's list
2) make my parents proud
3) be happy
4) stop thinking so much
5) be able to show my full potential in which i shall achieve true success

does that list make sense or is it too much to ask for? i mean i try and pray for everything, but i'm still missing the part where i have to work my butt off in order for things to happen. after all, all the things that i encounter and learn are for my own benefit. i just have to make use of the materials and things that are provided for me. if i don't i will never overcome my fear...

my fear of sinking deep in the depths of my own failures....